Change is possible

Not many people know this about me but I suffer with anxiety and various other mental health issues. It's not something I have felt particularly comfortable in expressing publicly in detail, ever. Close friends know but that's about it. I have suffered with various things since a young age but I didn't really know what it all was until two years ago. I didn't realise that other people didn't experience these things to the extent that I do.

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I have suffered with various forms of anxiety and mental health problems since childhood; separation anxiety, co-dependence, relationship anxiety, self-esteem issues, trust issues, chronic stress and bouts of depression. I have always had counselling on and off in my worst patches.

Two years ago was a really, really bad time for me. It was crippling. My life felt like it was falling apart. But two years on and I've learnt to cope. I've delved deep into who I am to find out why my mind behaves in this way. I am now on good terms with my mind but know that it can turn against me at any point so daily self care is essential. Today I woke up feeling good. I said something positive straight away and I heard the surprise in my boyfriend's voice. Change is possible. I am proof. For anyone suffering, never think that that is how you will always feel. Everything is temporary, even thought and feelings. Remember this when it feels all consuming. It can and will pass.

Why do I love teaching yoga?

The growth of this rose symbolises it perfectly for me. It's transformation. In the early days of your practice you start as a bud, needing water and light to grow. You face your struggles on your yoga mat, week in and week out, all the while nourishing your body, mind and soul through your practice, whether it's good or bad. You learn and grow with your practice. Then one day, you finally understand how a posture feels or you get 10 seconds of bliss in meditation where your mind is focused only on one thing, and you turn into that beautiful rose. As a teacher, I get to experience that every day when I teach my students. I get to see them blossom and that makes it all worth it. 

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10 steps for better headstands

Why headstand?

Headstand is my favourite posture in the Sivananda sequence. It allows us to see progress in the areas of the body that need to build strength and stamina to achieve it. For example, you notice your core and shoulders becoming stronger. You notice the opening in the shoulders as you begin to be able to bring the hips to stack over them. You notice when you finally get up and can take a breath in it!

When we start out learning headstand it feels so strange. To be on our head feels very unnatural and it can take time just to get used to that feeling. Rabbit pose is a great posture to practice to familiarise yourself with that upside down, head on the floor feeling.

Views on headstand

I have had two varying conversations this week about the practice of headstand. Some of my students have said it’s the reason they come to class, to be challenged and see their progress. They said that other teachers won’t teach it so they have never had the chance to try it.

On the other hand, I have received feedback to say that it’s dangerous, people fall out so it must be dangerous. Or that they have seen people in my class come up incorrectly. This is a misunderstanding of the practice and of my relationship with my students. I receive constructive feedback and take it on board. This blog has stemmed from the constructive feedback to show anyone who is scared of practising headstand, or not sure about it as part of a yoga practice, how to do it safely.

How I teach headstand

As a teacher, I am aware of those students who come to me every week who are likely to fall out as they begin to come up. I don’t teach headstand to students who don’t come to me regularly unless they already have a headstand practice. If someone is new to yoga and to my class, I don’t teach headstand to them straight away as it’s a long process built on trust and the relationship between teacher and student. This takes time. I always offer variations to those students who don’t want to practice it. It’s never forced upon anyone.

The students who fall know how to fall safely so each time they do, I don’t rush over to check on them. I choose not to make a scene of them falling as this can embarrass them and knock their confidence. But I do give them eye contact to see if they are hurt in any way. I acknowledge the fall as I am watching every student come up but it doesn’t need to be a massive affair if someone falls out of headstand. As I have been teaching these students for years, we can have this interaction without words. Sometimes, they give me a nod as if to say, ‘I’m fine’ and they try again. New students to the class may not notice this interaction between us and that’s the point. No fuss, no bother and no confidence knocked. If they have fallen due to incorrect alignment, I will go and speak to them quietly to help them to reduce their likelihood of falling again.

As a teacher, I can guide, adjust, repeat instructions but ultimately it is down to the student to take those instructions on board. Sometimes you can repeat yourself, demonstrate, adjust a thousand times and a student will still do it the way they want to. There are incorrect and dangerous ways to approach a headstand (and we all will be guilty of them in the early stages of trying to come up!) but generally, the most common mistake is people trying to kick up rather than coming in using core control.

As a teacher, I remind students to bring their knees into their chest first then lift the legs straight. If a student repeatedly chooses to kick up, ignoring my instructions, I can either advise them to stop or repeat the instructions again. This is teacher preference depending on the student/teacher relationship and the student’s overall level of ability. If someone is going to hurt themselves, it’s the teacher’s responsibility to lessen that risk. If you are a new student to the class, trust that the teacher and student have a relationship around their headstand practice. The teacher will always choose what’s best for their student.

Is headstand dangerous?

Headstand is not dangerous if you go with what your body will allow. If you push too hard too fast and you fall, you can injure yourself. If you go steady, slowly and you fall, you’ll be OK. You’ll do a rolly polly out.

Here’s a secret - when learning to come up into headstand every single person has fallen at least once. All those yoga stars on social media? They’ve fallen. Your teacher? They’ve fallen. How many of those have broken their necks or fingers? I don’t know stats…but I can tell you I never have, none of my students have and none of my teacher’s students have. If you listen carefully to your teacher’s guidance and your inner voice of intuition, you will be fine.

Once you are used to being upside down (after practising rabbit pose), you can begin learning to come in safely and very importantly, slowly. It’s a slow process to learn this posture but the benefits are worth it.

If you have high or low blood pressure, then please speak to your doctor before practising headstand.

You always start coming into your headstand practice from child’s pose which helps to regulate the blood pressure before coming to be on the head.

Step 1
Fold your mat to give you a guiding line to keep the elbows in line with each other. The mat should be folded to fit your hands and forearms in the top section. This isn’t an essential step but I found it immensely helpful when learning to come up. It means when you walk in, your elbows have a line to stay down on. You don’t want them to move at all while coming up. For example, when you begin to walk the legs in, you might find that one elbow moves forward. If that’s the case, come back to sitting on the heels and realign the elbows on the line of the folded mat and try again (more on this below).

Step 2

Step 2
Using the gap between the thumb and index finger, place this on the inside crease of the opposite elbow. Do this with both hands. You arms will now be crossed (see picture in the next step to help). This helps to align the elbows and shoulders - if you look down you will see that your elbows are the same distance apart as your shoulders.


Step 3
Place your elbows down on to the mat. If you have folded the mat, your elbows will be on the part that creates the line between the bottom of your mat and the top (see the pictures).

Step 4

Step 4
Bring the hands out and clasp the fingers. Do not bring the palms together. The palms are going to hold the back of your head so the hands need to be slightly apart. Try and keep your wrists from turning out. Roll the part of the wrist that is facing the ceiling in towards the centre of your mat. You can also tuck your little finger into the palm to reduce the chances of it getting squished!

Step 5

Step 5

Place the top of the head down between the hands, leaving a little space between the head and the palms so when you begin to walk the legs in (which is the next step), you are able to roll further back on to the head (almost to the point where the top of your head begins to become the back of your head). Roll your shoulder blades on to the back, so you’re moving your shoulders away from your ears.


Step 6

Walk the legs in, keeping the legs straight the whole time. You want to stack your hips over your shoulders before taking your feet off the floor. This takes time as the shoulders need to be open. You shouldn’t go beyond this stage unless you can comfortably stack the hips over the shoulders. If your shoulders are tight and your hips only come a little way back towards the shoulders, keep practising this. Keep walking the legs in, walking them back out and repeat until your hips stack (this can take months or years depending on the regularity of your practice). Remember to keep the shoulder blades on the back all the time.


Step 7

Bend one knee into the chest. Take the foot back to the floor and bend the other knee in. Keep repeating this until your core is strong enough to lift both knees in to the chest. Shoulders are away from the ears.


Step 8

Bend both knees into the chest and hold. Once you can get to this position with core control and hold it, you’re ready for the final stages to complete your headstand. Remember to lift the shoulders on to the back which will help you find stability.


Step 9

Once you can hold both knees into the chest, lift the knees to the ceiling and allow the feet to drop back towards the buttocks. Remember your shoulders, lift them away from the ears.


Step 10

Straighten the legs, take the toes up towards the ceiling and ta-da! You’re in headstand! When holding your headstand (and this can take years to achieve so keep with it!) remind yourself to check in with your shoulders. Always checking they are lifting away from the ears.


To come down

You repeat the steps in. Bring the heels to the buttocks, knees into the chest and then feet to the floor. You end in child’s pose to allow the blood pressure to return to normal.

So there you have it. Those are the stages I teach to come into a headstand. If you want to learn more, come back in a couple of weeks to read about the benefits of the headstand and why it’s taught.

Getting back into meditation

It's been quite a while since I gave myself the time to meditate. I became very good at making excuses as to why I couldn't find the time. It wasn't until I had a week or two of stress and anxiety that I realised what was missing and what might actually help me. 

I started to consider meditation before I began my practice again. I had had a long absence from it and knew my concentration wouldn't be very good. I knew my mind would drift and think about all the things that were making me stressed or anxious. I knew I had to give myself time to consider what I wanted the meditation to do for me otherwise I would be practising mechanically and on auto-pilot, with my mind elsewhere.

This is when I turned to the app store on my phone, somewhere I never thought I'd end up looking for meditations. There are so many apps to choose from. I wanted to get an idea of the meditations that are available as I normally practice 'Japa'. I wanted meditations for different feelings, emotions and objectives. I wanted there to be a person talking me through it as I felt my mind would be less likely to wander off if there was a person to bring me back to my practice. When left alone, I am usually sat in what looks like a meditative state but I'm typically just thinking about the day ahead of me or what I have to do in the week.

I heard of Headspace through a training course at work so decided to check it out. I understood it was useful for gaining mindfulness and helping with stress levels. It seemed like the sensible choice for me.

Headspace is free to download with the 'Take 10' sessions being completely free too. These sessions are a ten minute meditation for ten days. Andy (the creator of the app) talks you through simple breath meditations which I found helped me to escape my jittering mind. I began to feel that inner sense of calm I had lost.

After a few of the 'Take 10' sessions, I could feel the positive effect it was having on me and felt connected to the idea of meditation again. I decided to look into paying for a year's subscription. I'm not someone who would invest in something like this but I could feel it was worth it, especially when it works out at £4.99 a month for a year's subscription. £4.99 for your health and well-being in the comfort of your own home sounds like a good deal to me. Buying a subscription with Headspace opens up so much more of the app with the meditations targeting specific things which was exactly what I was looking for. 

I am still continuing my journey with Headspace. You have to complete the foundation course (30 days to complete if you meditate every day) before it unlocks the specific packages. I find that keeping them locked and knowing that I want to experience them, keeps me on track. I actively look forward to waking up and starting my day with Andy talking me through ten minutes of blissfulness.